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here is a rant made by me
I watch porn when I am bored
this is a given fact
I watch it because I like laughing at it o.o and im curious about it
what I have learned:
porn is pretty much not true

there are a lot of things about porn that I cant help but laugh at

1. Thats not how lesbian sex works. At all. Mostly what you are watching is a guy fantasy. What your witnessing is false advertisement.

2. A lot of those "hot girls" are honestly not that pretty o___O if I saw them in person i probably wouldnt look at them twice. Hell their bodies look like they will break in two pieces half the time. Im amazed that they can perform anything

3. if a girl has to be shaved, I want the guy to be shaved as well. it looks icky and most likely feels icky. I want it off

4. A lot of those girls seem to be faking. Half of them need to be lubrecated by some sort of manmade creation. I dont care if they "squirt" you can fake an orgasm. They're getting paid for this. They just have to make it convincing. I had a friend in highschool where she would fake it just to make the guy happy. She would get bored >.< or just not care. *claps hands* Sara you are brilliant o.o

5. honestly, real sex is not like porn. Like I said before this, they are getting paid so they'll do pratically anything. But most people would probably not do most of what Ive seen on the screen. Also, they make it look sleezier then it really is. Dont ask how I know, its none of your damn business

6. Even if there are girls who do act like the girls on porn..I have honestly yet to meet one in real life. I think there was only one girl who was sort of like that but hell if she wasnt picky and she sure as HELL talked badly about the men afterwards. I also feel for those guys as well for not knowing >.>

7. If I were to have sex with someone, I honestly say that they have to at least be attractive or something. Most of those people Ive seen (both guys and girls) do nothing for me. Someones probably saying "well if you were a guy, you would probably get it" but actually...if I was a guy, I would most likely be gay, so that just doesnt work. And I actually knew a straight guy who put down porn and said, "if they arent REALLY right here in real life, then this does nothing for me." I second that

Dont get me wrong. Porn is amusing. But it is probably far from the truth. Not all the time, just 99.9% of the time

today has been the worst day
I can honestly say
Ive ever had

I cant go into detail on whats going on...
but I can tell you its not what I wanted
nor can i explain it

have you ever had something you wanted so badly to come true
but its just in the back of your mind and it doesnt really go anywhere
and you think
if it ever happens ill be the luckiest person in the world

but you live life anyways
expecting it to never happen?
I guess I thought that
but in a subconcious level I was too afraid to admit that I knew my wish was slowly coming true

now I dont know what to think
i found out certain things that I cant understand why they happened..
but the puzzle pieces fit and now im horribly scared of it

Im almost in the process of
god melissa
you knew this was going to happen so why didnt you do anything about it

I dont know..
im so bothered..